Dear reader,
I really wasn't sure how to start this blog post, so I decided to address you. You see, I'm afraid I've been thinking! "That's a dangerous pass time" You say. And I agree, especially for a girl! I don't know, but I've been told, that boys dont think the same way girls do. They think in boxes whereas girls think in wires. Crazy messed up wires that run thoughts through our brains 100 miles per hour. Do not for one second think that I am saying we are in any way better than men, or smarter than men. For, in fact, we are not! We are just different. When a man can't keep his boxes in place they call it ADD. When a woman can't keep her thoughts on one wire, they say "How like a girl!".
However don't go by me, that's just what I heard.
Anyway, as I was saying I've been thinking, this morning while drinking my coffee, about many, many things. Then suddenly this thought came to me "I need to get a job, so I can pay my bills and go to Africa. Maybe I'll become a hippy and sell all I have and learn to play the guitar. Would I sell all my stuff so I could go to Africa?" I was definitely jumping wires just then.
My next thought of course was "Yes I WOULD. But I don't really have anything of value." My cloths, I wouldn't mind selling those. But do I have any of value? I have a cute sweater from Buckle That might make me ten bucks, a few pairs of pants, I've never worn, for two bucks each, I have a bunch of scarves I could sell for Two bucks each, then one Holster shirt I could sell for ten bucks. I'm up to $ 30. See not worth it. . .
Then again, I do have a Brother I could sell. . . Not an actual blood related, living, breathing, brother, a Brother Sewing Machine. I love my sewing machine, and use it a lot! It's in really good shape and works like a charm. I could sell it for at least 50-100 bucks I think. I also have two American girl dolls in perfect condition, one is the limited time only doll, Marisol! there's maybe another 75. I have stacks of books like you've never seen a 17 year old have. If I sold all of them I could probably get Another 45-50. And yes. . . All my movies, would perhaps bring in another 45-50. Lets say we are up to 275, I do have a car, If I could get 1200 out of my car, I would. $ 1475. That's enough for a plane ticket. Plus the money I've saved from cleaning the bank would help pay for all other expenses.
Think about it though, I would go to Africa, help the poverty stricken, preach the Word, love the orphans, and Give out Bibles. Then after all that and a few months I would come home and have nothing!
The sewing machine I use to make me dresses, skirts, and blankets would be gone. The dolls I am planning on giving to my nieces when they are older would be gone. I love my car, his name is Alan and we've been through a lot together. He would be gone as well. I'd have no books, no movies, and no fancy cloths. Only a life changing experience and treasures in heaven. That would be putting reason above sentiments. And I am very sentimental.
These thoughts that were running through my head were very convicting, very uncomfortable, and very scary. "Materialistic things make me happy."- M.W. Said once, and it is so true!
So back to the question above "Would I sell all I have to go to Africa?" The answer is unknown. I cannot say that I would, but I won't say I wouldn't. For if it was the will of God, and his Spirit did it for me, it would be done. But there is nothing inside me wishing to do it myself. Blast this human nature!
May God do with my life what He will, to Him be all glory forever and ever!
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